
I was checking my feed reader this morning and was shocked to see this on Marzouq’s blog.
Starting August 16th, TSA will allow laptops to remain in bags meeting new ‘checkpoint friendly’ guidelines. Not all laptop bags are ‘checkpoint friendly’. Not backpack or accordion style, they’re not allowed anymore. I think Jansport and some other makers won’t be any happy about that.
And that’s the truth. I’m not ashamed of the way I feel right now, because I’m what I want to be and I have people who care about me. But I’m very unhappy despite that.
The truth is that I’m such a whore, I just can’t let go of people who made it, inside my heart! my relations became bad memories. I’m still haunted by memories, a lot of drama. I never let on how awful I truly felt at those times…
I wanted to blog about my situation then, but I already have too much drama on. I know that my readers do not enjoy sad posts, so this is the truth, the truth is that I’m not okay. I thought I would be once I’m in a relation.
Apparently I’m not. I’m from those who give you an impression, a false one by looking good on the outside while I’m miserable inside, of course, I try and make myself better. I laugh, crack jokes up, do some shopping, smoke hookah, hang out with friends, maybe have a new haircut… thinking any of that would make me feel better. I feel better later on, for a short period.
I’m still not happy the way I was before. I lost many things. I lost some weight, I lost some friends, I gained some… I’m very depressed deep down inside, I just don’t show it.
I never show my inner feelings, ever!
I’m fake. I’m damaged. I’m a bad seed. I just happen to suffer from that and enjoy it at the same time, evil feels good, I might have some apples, however your lover’s apples taste better.
I know it is my fault, I’m responsible for my own happiness, but I think I need help finding it back.
I need a DQ and I’m proud.
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